Journal 8/27/07

Funny how my emotions are right now. I am convinced by my emotions that You are going to crush me for my rebellion and wickedness towards You. That is what my emotions tell me. They tell me that You are going to reach down and wipe me out which is what I deserve. Yet in reality, if I get wiped out, it will not be because of Your anger against me or anything of that sort, it will be solely because of the sin that dwells in me and the poor choices that I have made over the years. I am the worse of all sinners as I have known the truth and rebelled against.

Are You still with me Jesus? Or have I crossed the line where only retribution awaits me? I hate the things I have done. I hate my past. I hate and despise all those times where I sinned against You. Will You have mercy on me Jesus?

I need mercy. I need mercy. Please take pity on me Jesus. Please heal me and restore me to the place where You have called me to be. Please help me to be a better husband and father. I am so gripped with fear as I await that day when I stand before You shamed by the poor choices that I have made. And I ought to be looking forward to the day when we meet face to face. I want to fall in love with You Jesus. I want to be fully consumed by Your greatness that I live to worship and praise You. But my strength is gone. I am a tree in the dessert withering away in the dryness of the scorching sun.

How in the world can I continue if I cant find You Jesus? All the things that I desired in my youth I regret now as they were so selfish and self centered. I want to be a man who pursues goals of lasting value. Oh my heart fails me. I feel like Matthew 15:8 is a scripture that you wrote specifically for me. For it says in Mathew 15:8 – These people draw near to Me with their mouth, And honor Me with their lips, But their heart is far from Me.

I can appear so spiritual on paper. Yet writing a devotional or a journal entry or a poem does not make me any more spiritual. What is the point of these things if my heart is far from You? And my heart has been far from You for a very long time.

My hope is 1 John 3:20 – For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and knows all things. I hope this says what I think it says in the context of this journal entry. Because my heart condemns me and it should for I have sinned and sinned and sinned against You Jesus. Please forgive me for the rebellion that I have been in. Please forgive me for not going after you the way that you deserve. Please forgive me for choosing sin over intimacy with you.

I am sick to my stomach because of the things that I have done. Please forgive me Jesus and help me to walk in a manner that is pleasing to you. Help me to rejoice in the joy of my salvation once again and teach me Your ways Lord that I may walk in truth all the days of my life.

I know that I am your desire. I am yours, have your way with me. I commit my mind, body and soul into your hands.

Bill Scott, Sr.

Praise Songs from Calvary Chapel

As some of you may already know, I recorded one of my songs on my churches CD. Well the CD is out now and if anyone would like one let me know, the church is selling them for 5 bucks each plus shipping and handling.

Bill

Urgent Prayer Request

I cant say what it is, but please pray for me.....thank you

Journal 8/22/07

I live among the dead; I live in the depravity of the darkness that is buried deep inside the grave of my head. I need to be freed from the chains that I have placed myself in. I am a dead man walking; as I lay in the filth in my heart. The demons chase after me as I sob in a torrent of tears. I need to be rescued. I need to be delivered from my adversary which ultimately is me. Does anyone hear? I am my own enemy! Can anyone help? I am lost in my own darkness and I am consumed in fear as I lay bound here in the dark state that I am in.

The fire is gone as the chill runs down my spine in this nightmare. And in the midst of my darkness you are still my light. You are the One I cry out to Jesus as I long to be with you. And yet fear of death grips me in the depths of my being. I have so many regrets. I am so ashamed of who I have become and I hate who I am apart from you Jesus. Regret is all I know these days as I look and see all the horrible things I have done against you Jesus. I have lived a selfish life and a self-centered life. Lord Jesus please have mercy on me.

I feel so forsaken and desolate. I feel lost, utterly lost! Please hold me Jesus and take my broken soul. I am so deplorable and wretched. I am desperate for you, all of you, the real you. I need you Jesus. I want you, and I must have you. You are the King of all glory and I long to behold you. Please become my Prince of peace.

I am nothing at all yet you bid me to come to you. Yet I am so overwhelmed with everything. So I stand here weeping in your presence as my sobs break the silence. And as I look down at my tears, they do not hit the ground as they run off my cheek. They are caught by your nailed scarred hands which only causes me to sob even more.

Oh why do you love me so Lord? After all I have done and all the places I have been? I forget the price you paid for my life. And as my world crumbles around me, all I desire and all I want is your forgiveness and mercy. I want you Jesus. Will you have me?

Bill

Real science - thank you Kent Hovind!

Here is what the Bible and science says about evolution and here is the evidence of creation:

I believe that the Bible is the infallible Word of God. I believe it from cover to cover. In 2 Timothy 3:16, it says, “ALL SCRIPTURE is given by inspiration of God, & is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness.

The Bible says, in Genesis, “In the Beginning….” When was the beginning? How old is the earth anyways? This is an extremely important question. This question that I will be dealing with is a question that has caused many people not believe in Gods word. So I find it a very important question to deal with. This is the heart of the battle.

In Colossians 1:16a it says, “For by Him (Jesus) were all things created, that are in Heaven, & that are in the earth…” Since Jesus created everything, He probably knows how old it is. Jesus said in Mathew 19:4, “And he answered & said unto them, Have you not read, that He which made them in the beginning made them male & female.”

In Mark 10:6, “From the beginning of the creation, God made them male & female.” The Bible says that death came by sin, (Romans 5:12 & 1 Corinthians 15:21-22), By man, came all sin & in Adam all die. Adam was the 1st man according to the Bible, that is a very clear teaching of the bible. The Bible teaches that the Earth is about 6000 years old.

This is the basic rundown of the Biblical view of things: The Bible teaches that God created the earth about 6000 years ago. Forty-four hundred years ago there was a flood. Two-thousand years ago Jesus came & died on a cross & rose from the dead. And here we are today waiting for the Lord to come back in about 5 minutes!!! That is the basic teaching of the Word of God. This is the biblical view of creation.

If you gave the bible to 5000 people who had never read the bible before & you told them to actually read it & tell us what it says, they would all come up with this same historical timeline. That is the obvious teaching of the bible. We have people who teach that the earth is billions of years old & the Bible teaches that the earth is 6000 years old. Who is right?

The textbooks in the schools tell people that 20 billion years ago there was a big bang. Four point six billion years ago the earth cooled down & developed a hard rocky crust. Then it rained on the rocks for millions of years & turned it into soup. The soup came alive about 3 billion years ago. Then the 1st life form found somebody to marry…blah, blah, blah, & something to eat & then very slowly evolved into what we see today.

The skeptics will say, “Adam & Eve had Cain & Abel, Cain then killed Abel, who did Adams sons marry?” They think, we got you now…Hahaha….

But if you believe in evolution, your problem is worse than mine. The evolutionist believe that 4.6 billion years ago that the earth cooled down. Then it rained on the rocks & turned them into soup. Then the 1st living organisms appeared. They use that word a lot, “APPEARED” Things just appear. They say, “swirling around in the waters of the ocean is a bubbling broth of complex chemicals…progress from a complex chemical soup to a living organism is very slow…”

In the college science book called, “Biology, The Unity & Diversity of Life” it says, “The first self-replicating systems must have emerged in this organic soup.”

Now if you believe in evolution, then you have to get two cells to evolve. They have to be of the opposite sex. They have to evolve in the same place at the same time in history. It’s a big world you know. Cells are kind of small….(they have to find each other). There are a lot of problems that you have to explain that I don’t.

I don’t have a problem because in Genesis 5:4 it tells us that Adam live another 800 years or so & had sons & daughters. How many kids could you have in 800 years?

So in the 1st generation they married sisters.

1. There is no choice, (no one would have thought that it was wrong at that time).
2. Who would you report them to? (They were the only people in the world).
3. There were no laws against it until 2500 years later when Moses gave the law. They didn’t need a law against that in the original creation because there were no deformed chromosomes. Everything about you is inherited. (If your parents don’t have kids, you wont either). Genetic similarity is not a problem in the 1st generations.

Okay, so when was the beginning? How old is the earth? The science books have brainwashed people to believe that the earth is billions of years old. Why do I care so much about the age of the earth?

1. The credibility of Genesis is at stake because Genesis teaches that the earth is about 6000 years old.
2. The credibility of Jesus is at stake. (Jesus cited Genesis 25 times), apparently Jesus believed it.
3. Nearly every book in the entire Bible refers to the book of Genesis.

How old is the earth? Let’s look at some scientific indicators. In the “Star Tribune Minneapolis, Minn. On July 24th 1999” it said, “Last weekend the world’s population topped 6 billion.”

Now if you don’t know how much a billion is (don’t worry because congress doesn’t know either), a billion is a lot. In 1985 there were 5 billion people on the earth. In 1800 there were about 1 billion people on the planet. Almost everyone agrees that there were about 1 billion people in 1800, it really isn’t disputed. Everyone also agrees that the population is growing rapidly.

(With all that said, the world is not over crowded. Did you know that all of the world’s population, all 6 billion people could fit inside the city limits of Jacksonville Florida, twice? That city has 25 billion square feet, obviously we all couldn’t survive there at once, but I just want to show you the size of our land).

At the time of Jesus there were about ¼ of a billion people on the earth. The population curve looks like it started about 4400 years ago. Well, that’s interesting, because the bible teaches that 6000 years ago God created the world. Forty-four hundred years ago there was a flood & only 8 people survived. Now if you start with 8 people having kids & grand-kids, you can easily get a population of 5-6 billion in a few thousand years.

If the earth is billions of years old & man has been here for 3 million years, then why aren’t there more people? Do you realize that in 3 million years the population would have grown to where we would have 150,000 people per square inch. That would be crowed. We have not been here for 3 million years.

Here is another fact. Galaxies are spinning but the stars in the middle are going faster than the ones on the outside. If they were billions of years old, they would not have the spiral shape to them. Spiral galaxies indicate that they are not billions of years old. They would have been spun smooth into one homogeneous mass. They would not have the spiral arms because the stars are moving at different speeds.

Textbooks say that Red Giant Stars evolve into white dwarfs over billions of years. But we know that the ancient Egyptians called Sirius a red star. (Look, I am using scientific facts that are not from the Bible! What? You mean there are other sources of evidence recorded than just what is recorded in the Bible? Yes, there is!!!)

“Egyptian hieroglyphs from 2000 B.C. described Sirius as red.”“Cicero, in 50 B.C. stated that Sirius was red.” “Seneca described Sirius as being redder than Mars.”“Ptolemy listed Sirius as one of the six red stars in 150 A.D.” Today Sirius is a white dwarf. This happened in less than 2000 years. It doesn’t take billions of years like the text books say.

Jupiter is cooling down. It is losing heat twice as fast as it gains it. You can’t keep losing heat, pretty soon it’s cooled off, right? If you found a cup of coffee on the table & I said don’t touch the coffee, it’s hot. You ask “Who’s is it?” I answer, “I don’t know? It has been sitting there for 400 years!” That would be kind of hard to believe, don’t you think? But people want me to believe that these planets are billions of years old & they are losing heat!!!

Saturn has rings around it, but the rings are moving away from the planet. The rings are unstable. They are less than 10,000 years old. These rings would have been gone after 10,000 years yet you want to tell me that it is billions of years old. If the universe is billions of years old, then why does Saturn still have rings?

Jupiter has a moon called Ganymede, but it is constantly losing heat. And Ganymede has a strong magnetic field which indicates that it can’t be billions of years old. “Magnetic Fields” are generated by the liquid motion of molten metal inside a body. Ganymede should have cooled solid billions of years ago. It is not billions of years old.

The moon is going around the earth. Did you know that as the moon goes around the earth it is slowly getting further away. We are slowly losing our moon. It’s only a few inches a year, no big deal. (There is nothing to worry about plus there is nothing we can do about it anyways). The moon gets further from the earth every year which means, that it use to be closer. If you start to bring the moon in closer to the earth, you start to create a problem because the moon causes the tides.

There is a law in physics known as the Inverse Square Law which says: “The force of attraction between two objects is inversely proportional to the square of the distance between them.” What that simply means is that if you “Half” the distance then you “Quadruple” the attraction. If you brought the moon in to 1/3 the distance, the force of the attraction between the two objects is 9 times greater. 1/3 inverted 3/1, 3 squared = 9 (1/3 flipped over & squared).

The moon tells us that it can’t be billions of years old because just a few billion years ago the moon would have been so close & the tides would have been so high that it would have drowned everything on earth twice a day. (And you can only drown comfortably once a day).

Outer space is full of dust. The scientists have known about dust in space for a long time. They have done all kinds of testing to see just how much dust is in space coming to the earth. When they were ready to land on the moon, they were very concerned of the dust in space because the moon runs into this dust. The moon doesn’t have any wind or water to mix it into the soil, so the dust just lands there & stays.

They calculated the dust to be pretty thick on the moon. The famous astronomer by the name of “Littleton” said in 1955, before they went to the moon. Littleton felt that x-rays & UV light striking exposed moon rocks “could during the age of the moon be sufficient to form a layer over it several miles deep.” (Monthly Notices of the Royal Astronomical Society of London Vol. 115. 1955 pp. 585-604). Isaac Asimov said, “I get a picture, therefore, of the 1st spaceship, picking out a nice level place for landing purposes, coming in slowly downward tail-first & sinking majestically out of sight.” (Isaac Asimov. Science Digest Ian 1959 P. 36). Again, this was in 1959 before man went to the moon.

Even in children books before they went to the moon it talked about the dust. In the children book “You WILL Go To the Moon” written before 1959 it said, “Boys & girls, the moon does not look like the earth. There are no trees, no lakes, no water. Just dust, dust, dust.

There is just deep, gray dust. Dust, dust, dust.”They were so concerned with landing on the moon that they put huge landing pads on the space craft to spread the weight out. They wanted to give it the snowshoe effect. The landing pads were added & the legs were lengthened because of the concerns over the predicted layer of dust. They actually sawed the ladder off. The ladder was 18 inches to short in anticipation of the thick dust layer. The guy had to jump down to the moon. He was concerned with ripping his suit. (Trust me, you don’t want to get a rip in you suit out there).

If you can get a hold of the 1st hour of conversation on the moon, you will hear them talking about, “the dust.” They were wondering where all the dust was. The man who built the backpack for the astronauts is now a pastor in Oshkosh, Wisconsin. He said, “I worked at NASA & I built the backpack. I was instructed to build it dust proof incase he sank into the dust.” They were still worried about the dust when they landed on the moon. But the dust wasn’t there.

So the Christians at NASA said to the evolutionist, “How old is the moon?” They said, “Oh, it’s billions of years old.” They said, “Then where is the dust?” The evolutionist didn’t say this, but I am sure they were thinking this, “I bet those Christians went up there & cleaned it just to make us look stupid!” No, we didn’t go up there & clean the moon.

I can tell you where the dust is. You see, the moon is not billions of years old. They left plates behind to collect dust. The accumulation of dust is much less than they thought. It is not an inch in 10,000 years. “Only 1/67th of the moon dust is from space*. The actual measured amount of dust turned out to be 2.7 inches per million years.” (In the beginning by Walt Brown p. 214 CSE $17.50 *the rest is kicked up lunar soil).

So the dust is a lot less than they thought, but that still works out to be 1,033 feet of dust in 4.6 billion years.

There is still a problem. The moon is not billions of years old.Comets are flying around through space & they are constantly losing material. The stuff flying off of the tail is the material that they are losing. They can’t keep losing & losing….eventually it is all gone. It’s kind of like your check book. If your outgo exceeds your income, Your upkeep will be your downfall. Comets have a life expectancy of less than 10,000 years (Prentice Hall Earth Science 1991 p. 73).

“In 1950, based on a study of the orbits of several long-period comets, the Dutch astronomer Jan Oort proposed that a great spherical shell of (Comets) existed at the remote frontiers of our solar system.” – Matson.

“Better statistics in more recent years have supported the existence of the Oort Cloud & put it at a distance of 50,000 AU (1.3 light-years).” – From Matson’s “answer” to the creationist young earth arguments.

Just incase you don’t know, one Astronomical Unit (AU), is the distance from the earth to the sun. It is 93,000,000 miles. It is a big number. This guy Matson says that this so-called “Oort cloud” is 50,000 AU away. There is a problem with this though.No one has ever seen the Oort Cloud. (Oort never saw the Oort Cloud). It turns out that it is based upon a mathematical goof.

“Oort proposed a cloud of comets surrounding the solar system based on mathematical errors.” – (See Raymond Littleton. “The Non-Existence of the Oort Commentary Shell.” Astrophysics & Space Science Vol. 31 December 1974. Pp. 385-401).

So this Oort Cloud does not exist. But this scoffer named Matson said, “Sorry fella's, but if you want to use this comet argument it is up to you to prove beyond a reasonable doubt that the Oort Cloud & other sources don’t exist!”

What? How are you going to prove the “Non-existence” of something? Prove to me that it is there, I don’t have to prove that it does not exist, you have to prove to me that it does exist. If you want to teach that the earth is billions of years old, then it is up to you to prove that it is. All I know is that we do have comets, they don’t last long. The Bible teaches that the earth is 6000 years old & it looks to me like it fits pretty well.

Psalm 39:3, “While I was MUSING the fire burned:”Psalm 143:5, “I remember the days of old; I meditate on all thy works; I MUSE on the work of thy hands.”

The word “Muse” is only used twice in the entire Bible. It literally means, “To Think.” We don’t take time to think anymore. English is an interesting language. The word, “Theist” is a person who believes in God. When you put the letter “A” in front of the word, it means, the opposite of.

An “Atheist” is a person who does not believe in God. The word “Muse” means to think. The word “Amuse” literally means to not think. They have whole parks where someone can go & pay to do that, they are called: “Amusement Parks.”

It says in Psalm 8:3, “When I consider the heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon & the stars, which thou has ordained;” Psalm 8:4, “What is man, that thou art mindful of him?” You can always tell when someone spends their time thinking & considering what God has done. They are not impressed with what man can do.

When you consider the heavens, it does not matter what man can do.How old is the earth? Well, the earth is like a big magnet & magnets lose their strength with time. The earth’s magnet is losing its strength continually. It is getting weaker & weaker, which means that it cannot be billions of years old & it means that carbon dating cannot work for more than a few thousand years. (If you desire, I will go into detail on why carbon dating can’t work, just let me know).

Some skeptics knew that the whole magnetic field was getting weaker & that it was a problem so they claimed that maybe the earth’s magnetic field is reversing. They went to the bottom of the mid-Atlantic ridge to try & find evidence that the magnetic field is reversing. The text books say that there are magnetic reversals in rocks on the ocean floor. They say that to answer the embarrassing problem of the declining strength of the magnetic field.

It has never been observed to reverse. It has only been observed to decline. For three-hundred years that is all that we have seen, it’s declining. There are no area’s of magnetic reversals. What happened is these people measured places of stronger & weaker magnetism. Somebody drew a line in the middle & said that anything lower than the halfway point is a reversal. But it isn’t, it’s a lower magnitude of the magnetic field. There are no magnetic reversals on the ocean floor.

The earth is spinning at about 1000 MPH at the equator. But the earth is slowing down. In 1990, they had to add a tick to the clock. It was off by a second. In the “Pensacola News Journal, 12/6/1990”, it said, “…regular clocks use days as a measure. Which are growing longer by a thousandth of a second or more daily as Earth’s rotation slows.”

“Earth’s Rotation is slowing down. To compensate for this lagging motion, June will be one second longer than normal. This ‘Leap Second’ announced by the International Earth Rotation Service in February, will keep calendar time in close alignment with international time.” – Astronomy Magazine, June 1992, p.24.

We have a leap second every year & a half now because the Earth is slowing down. (The earth is slowing down, which means that it use to go faster). If the Earth is only 6000 years old, then this is not a problem. The earth was going a little faster & Adam wouldn’t have even noticed it.

But you guys want me to believe that the earth is billions of years old. That creates a problem. If you go back a billion or two years & you add one thousandth of a second per day to the spin of the earth, then that means that the earth was going extremely fast. Your days & nights would be very quick. It would be day, night, day, night, day, night, every second. You would have to get up then go right back to bed & then get up & go right back to bed.

The winds would have been 5000 miles per hour due to the Corilolis effect. And you think that dinosaurs lived two hundred million years ago? I know what happened to them…..they flew off the earth. They would have had to at the speed that the earth would be going.

The Sahara Desert has a prevailing wind pattern. The wind almost always blows in the same direction. This creates a problem because the hot air off of the desert kills the trees on the edge & pretty soon that area becomes desert. This process is called “desertification.” The Sahara Desert is the largest desert in the world. It is 1300 miles from North to South & is growing 4 miles a year.

People are speeding up the process due to poor farming & the like, but even without that scenario, the desert would still grow. They just did a lengthy study on this & they concluded that the Sarah Desert is about 4000 years old. (See Potsdam Institute for Climate Impact Research in Germany, July 15, 1999 – Geophysical Research Letters).

Now that is pretty old, but I have a question for you? If the Earth is billions of years old, then why don’t we have an older desert? Why is the biggest desert in the world only 4000 years old?

I have a theory about that. I believe that about 6000 years ago God created the world, just like the bible says. Forty-four hundred years ago there was a flood. It is kind of hard to have a desert under a flood. You can’t have a desert until the flood waters go down. So I predict by what the bible says that the biggest desert should be less than 4400 years old!!

OH WOW, IT IS!!! Maybe the Bible is right after all.

Did you know that when they drill in the ground that sometimes they find oil? The oil is under incredible pressure, they can be up to 20,000 psi, (pounds per square inch). The guys who studied the rocks on top of the oil said that the rocks can only handle that pressure for 10,000 years or less.

So I have two questions them.
1. Where did the oil come from?
2. Why is it still under pressure?

Nearly all of scientist agree that oil comes from organisms that have been squished. “Oil & Gas are from organisms that once lived in the sea…changed by heat & pressure…into oil.” – (Holt General Science. 1988 p.294).

They can take a bunch a garbage in a science lab & squeeze it into oil in a few minutes. Under natural pressures, it can be done in 1000 years. They say that all the oil came from dinosaurs over an 80 million year period. I don’t think so. Here is my theory on where the oil came from.

I believe that about 6000 years ago, God created the heavens & the earth. 4400 years ago there was a flood. In that flood lots of critters & people drowned. They were buried by the sand, gravel, rocks, & mud. Well, that got pretty heavy after a while & it squished them into oil. So the oil that is down there is from the people & the animals that drowned in the flood.

(If you think about that, the next time you are at the gas station getting gas you can say to the gas…..”Goodbye Grandpa, you should have listened to Noah, he said it was going to rain.”)

In Denver Colorado they have the National Ice Core Laboratory. They have 10 ice core samples taken from a remote Antarctic glacier. These ice cores are resting in a giant freezers waiting to be tested. The freezer is 36 degrees below zero. They test the ice there to see how old it is.

They drill in Greenland & Antarctica & they bring back these ice cores. Well, these ice cores have what they call, “Annual Rings” on them. The deepest core can measure over 10,000 feet…& they say that based upon the annual rings that the ice is 135,000 years old. If you look at the core of the ice, you will see that it has dark & light lines on them.

They say, “In the summer, the top layer of snow melts & refreezes as clear ice, which shows up as the dark line. In the winter the snow packs & shows up as a white milky layer. So it shows summer, winter, summer, winter, & we can count 135,000 of them. How can you say the earth is only 6000 years old?”

But my question is, “Aren’t you assuming that those are annual rings?” You see, in 1942, in W.W.II, there was a plane that had to land in Greenland because it ran out of gas. Some guy decided that he was going to dig them out. When they found the airplane, it was under 263 feet of ice, in 48 years.

So take 48 years divided by 263 feet of ice is about 5.5 feet of ice per year. The biggest hole that those other guys drilled was about 10,000 feet. 10,000 divided by 5.5’ = 1824 years. Now the deeper you go, the more the layers get squished. Deeper ice is pressed into finer layers so 4400 years is a little more closer to the age of the ice. By the way, planes don’t sink in the ice due to pressure on the ice.

The plane is in Middlebrow, Kentucky. Bob Cardin is the guy who dug it out. His phone number is: (606) 248-1149. He said that he saw those annul rings. But he said that they are not annual rings, they are not summer, winter, summer winter, they are warm, cold, warm, cold. You can get 20 of those rings in one week.

Like I said before, there is so much evidence that backs up God’s Word, I am satisfied with the fact that God’s Word is absolutely true. Take for example Mississippi River.

The Mississippi River is deposits mud sediments at a rate of 80,000 tons per hour – day after day. (Prentice Hall General Science, 1992 p.145). The call it the “Muddy Mississippi”. All this mud dumps off in New Orleans, in the Gulf of Mexico. That delta is growing larger & larger & larger. Scientist studied the delta pretty carefully. They said that it took 30,000 years to accumulate the mud in the delta.

If that is the case, then I have a question. If the earth is billions of years old, then why isn’t the whole Gulf of Mexico full of mud right now? They say, “Well, it’s 30,000 years old, that proves that the bible is wrong because the bible says the earth is 6000 years old.”

Well, I have a theory about that. I believe that about 6000 years ago God created the earth, just like the Bible says. 4400 years ago there was a flood. As the flood water was running off, it filled the Gulf of Mexico with mud, not in 30,000 years, but in just a couple of years. All that mud washed out with the receding flood waters. It looks like it took 30,000 years, but they forgot the flood….it only took 4400 years.

In the book, “Allyn and Bacon Biology, 1977, p. 180”, they have a picture of the oldest tree in the entire world. This tree is in Central California & is called the “Bristlecone Pine”. It is 4300 years old. They call it the worlds oldest living organism. That is a pretty old tree. But I have a question. If the earth is billions of years old, then why don’t we have an older tree some place? Why is the oldest tree in the entire world 4300 years old?

Well, I have a theory about that. I believe that about 6000 years ago God created everything, just like the bible says. Then about 4400 years ago there was a flood. So the oldest tree in the world should be less than 4400 years old.

WILL YOU LOOK AT THAT, WOW…..IT IS!!!

Did you know that the largest Coral Reef is in Australia. It is called, “The Great Barrier Reef”. During W.W.II., some of the reef was destroyed by the ships & bombs & anchors, & other things like that. So the environmentalist went out there to see how fast it grows back.. They studied it & watched it grow for 20 years….(it was a government project).After watching the reef grow for 20 years, they came to the conclusion that the Great Barrier Reef is less than 4200 years old. That is pretty old.

Umm, but I have a question. If the earth is billions of years old, why don’t we have a bigger reef some place? Why is the biggest reef less than 4200 years old? Well, I have a theory about that. I bet you know what it is don’t you….

In the science book, “Holt Earth Science, 1989, p.279”, it says, “The rocky ledge above Niagara Falls has been eroding for nearly 9,900 years”. How do they know that? Well, the rocks are breaking off of the edge. Niagara Falls is eating it’s way south. It’s eroding. The Canadian’s built a concrete wall on there side to make sure that it erodes on American soil. (They really did).

The rocks are breaking off of the edge & the water fall is moving backwards. All waterfalls do this. The eat their way backwards, depending on how hard the rock is. Niagara Falls is moving backwards 4.7 feet a year. “Crest lines showing recession of Horseshoe Falls since 1764. 865 feet in 185 years is approximately 4.7 feet per year”. – (Source: Niagara Falls Museum Guide).

The water goes over the fall into a big gorge, called the “Niagara Gorge” or the “Niagara Canyon”. The Niagara Canyon is 7 ½ miles long. “A gorge about 7 ½ miles long runs just below Niagara Falls. A simple calculation shows that it has been 9900 years…” – (Holt Earth Science 1984, p. 284).

Well, I have a question then. Niagara Falls used to be near Lake Ontario. If Niagara Falls is billions of years old or even millions of years old, then why isn’t back to Lake Erie right now? Well, I have a theory about that.

I believe that about 6000 years ago, God created the earth. 4400 years ago there was a flood. As the water was running off, about half that gorge ran off in the 1st couple of months to a year or so. How is that possible? Because in the time of the flood there was a lot more water running through soft dirt, not hard rock. So it looks like it took 9900 years, but they forgot the flood.

Did you know that when it rains, 30% of the water runs into the oceans. Bringing with it, mineral salts. “Oceans today are 3.6% salt” – (Hole Biology 1994, p.225). The oceans are getting saltier everyday. They could have done that in less than 5000 years. If the earth is billions of years old, then why aren’t the oceans saltier like the Dead Sea or the Great Salt Lake? Why is it only 3.6%?

A guy was in a debate once & a skeptic said, “Can you please answer a question for me? You believe that there was a world wide flood?” Yes I do. So the skeptic said, “How did the fresh water fish survive?” The speaker said, “Sir, aren’t you assuming that the flood was salt water?” The skeptic said, “Well, the ocean is salt water”. The speaker replied, “Yes it is, today. But it has been getting saltier everyday, so I think that during the flood, that it was all fresh water.”

So the skeptic answered & said, “Well then, how did the salt water fish survive?” The speaker answered and said, “Well, there weren’t any.” The skeptic said, “The ocean is full of salt water animals.” The speaker said, “Well, yeah, it is today, but it has gradually gotten saltier & many of the animals have had to learn to adapt salt water….or don’t live there. Today we have fresh water alligators & salt water alligators. They probably had a common ancestor……an alligator.”

The skeptic said, “Well, that’s evolution”. The speaker answered & said, “Common Sir, going from a fresh water alligator to a salt water alligator is a minor change compared to the evolution myth. You see, you teach that they change from a rock to an alligator. That would be a major change.”

So everyone who rejects the God of the bible has to come up with another solution and the problem is that they cannot. They create these theories that do not hold any water.

Journal 8/15/07

O Lord, I call to you; come quickly to me. Hear my voice when I call to you. May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice. Psalm 141:1-2

Because I was created by God and for His glory, I will magnify Him as I respond to His great love. My desire is to make knowing Him and enjoying Christ the passionate pursuit of my life.

Father,

Here is my life, if you can do something with it, then please do so.

In Jesus name, Amen

Are you Ready?

Are you ready?

We are at the gates as the “End” does draw near
A time for us to rejoice and all others to fear
We are very close, as it will not be that long
Are you ready for the “End?” You cant afford to be wrong.

The buildings are swaying in the wind where they stand
As God’s judgment is poured out, upon the souls of man
Chaos and fear tend to grip all around
As fire falls from the sky and scorches the ground

Horror and terror are what seems to prevail
As fire reigns down and men’s hearts begin to fail
The sky is full of thunder; lightning is seen in flashes
As billions rebel and will die with the masses

The Great Tribulation begins to unfold
People begin to suffer as their hearts remain cold
Inflation is something that will effect the poor
A loaf of bread will cost a days wages and more

Earthquakes and famines and death do prevail
Life here on earth will be a living hell.
Yet this is only the beginning of pains
As this age ends and the anti-christ begins his reign.

With signs in the sky and deception in the air
The anti-christ is alive; his kingdom is doing well
For who can wage war against a man with his power
Not a soul on earth can, for this is his hour

Things start to get worse; a line is drawn in the sand
If you don’t serve anti-christ then you will die where you stand
All must worship the beast no matter where they dwell
They start taking his mark; condemning their souls to hell

Whoa to the earth and woe to all men
God’s judgment is here and is poured upon sin
For there is no hope once you have taken the mark
Your fate has been sealed, your future is dark

Yet you now say that when the tribulation begins
You will at that time serve Christ and will turn from your sins
If you cant live for Christ now then why do you assume
You will die for him then as serving him will seal your doom?

I hope you will ponder, these words that I say
I pray you will heed God’s word and get saved
Because the stage is set as we move that way steadily
The end is upon us, the question is, Are you ready?

Written by Bill Scott, Sr.

Journal 8/7/07

Father,

I have been living my own way; thinking of myself only and not seeking you for anything. I have been building castles in the sand as the temporary pleasures of life which mean absolutely nothing have consumed me to the point of utter destruction. And now the storms have come and the walls of sand are crashing in and falling down upon me. In my castle of sand I thought I was a prince when in fact I was only a slave. So here I am Jesus once again as I stand here weeping in sorrow and anguish of soul for my wretchedness towards you.

My face is soaked as the tears flood down my cheeks like a broken dam. I have held my ground for as long as I can in my own stubbornness and I can no longer do so. I need you Jesus, I need your grace so desperately. I am sliding in the torrents of mud as my own pride and self-seeking heart is my constant downfall. I can’t hold my ground any longer as it has washed out beneath me Lord, so here I am reaching out my hand as I beg for mercy and pity.

Please take me back Jesus. Please free me from this world. Please free me from the slavery which the world brings. Though the storms of life drench me and cause me to almost drown, when I make the world my friend they always leave me high and dry which is far worse. And now I swim in the mess that I have made as I drag your name through the mud.

I am not worthy Jesus to be associated with you let alone called one of yours. I have abandoned all the things you have taught me and I have shamed your name so badly. How I hate the morning sun because it drags me into another day of shame and of reaping what I have sown.

Oh please transform me into your likeness Jesus. Free me.

Bill

Three of the loves of my life

I love my kids, they are so much fun. What a blessing to watch and see them grow.

My online devotional

So I am writing 5 devotionals for an online group called "Writer Interrupted". My 1st one was posted yesterday under Midweek Devotional, I think this is the link: http://ginaconroy.com/groupblog/wordpress/?p=531

When you get a moment please check it out. I have the entire month of August and a new devotional will be posted every Wednesday on that site. I believe this link is the home page for that writing group: http://www.writerinterrupted.com/groupblog/wordpress/

Enjoy!

Take Him to Jesus!

The love of her life is drifting into darkness;
He is losing his mind as he is lost in distress
The love she has known is falling to pieces;
As he loses his hope and he weeps in his head

A child’s hearts sobs as he walks through the day;
His soul cries out loudly with his heart on display
You try to make sense of it as he’s desperate for hope;
You are straining for words to help this man cope

Darkness is consuming; his eyes lost in a deep stare
He withers away with his mind lost in despair
Hope fades away as the day turns to night;
This man starts to sob as things just are not right

And words are not easy; you don’t know what to say;
He falls deeper in darkness and into dismay
The pain is unbearable its too much to bear
Yet you don’t need the answers, just lift him up in prayer

Take this man to Jesus; to the cross where Christ died
For his burden is easy, and he will stay by this mans side
As he starts to stumble; just reach out your hand
And take him to Jesus; where God will help this man stand.

Written by Bill Scott, Sr

Journal 7/16/07

The scriptures declare that I am a new man in Christ that the old things have passed away and all things become new. But somewhere on this journey of life I have lost sight of that and it feels as if all the new things have gotten old. I hate feeling this way. I desire so desperately to have the joy of God’s salvation alive in me once again.

I have made so many mistakes in my life. And when it comes to sin, lets just say that I can’t even begin to number how many times I have willfully sinned against the Lord. Yet my sins and mistakes are cast away as far as the east is from the west. And although I am a brand new man in a foreign land, I feel like the fire is lost and I am lost in the land of my enemies. And my greatest enemy is me.

Will you move me like you used to Lord? I want to burn brightly for you once again, but it is something that you have to do in me. I cannot do this in and of myself. I want to be revived again. I want to experience your new life again. Will you lift me up again and restore me fully?I long to burn brightly for you Jesus. When the smoke clears I want to be a man who is holy and on fire for the right things. I desire passion for your name once again and at the moment I simply do not have it.

I wake up in apathy as the ghosts of my past haunt me. It’s as if I had a grip on reality at one point in time but the deceitfulness of sin has caused a delusion of reality and instead of confidence in you Jesus, fear grips me as it seems that you are slipping away from my grip. Oh how grateful I am that I will never slip from your hands. Will darkness ever leave me? Will I see the sun climb high into the heavens anytime soon? I want to say that I am a broken man, but apathy has consumed me to the point where I feel nothing. And I know that only you alone can renew my soul again. I need revival. No one else can help me Jesus, there is no substitute for what you can do in my life. I want to get up out of my slumber and run for you like there is no tomorrow. I want to run the race, not fade away into nothingness. I would rather burn for you than to have my flickering flame go out.

So back to my original thought; I am a brand new man in Christ who has been changed on the inside. This change ought to fan the flame of my passion towards you Lord. So I am praying that you would give me a new desire to pursue you like never before. I desire to have the energy to pursue the things of God like never before. I don’t want to live out the old mans will anymore, for I have a new destiny. Please lead me into the way of everlasting. I can’t do this by myself so I am calling upon you Jesus to help me.

Bill

Journal 7/12/07 - more thoughts

Father,

It seems like I fail you a million times a day on a good day; yet your mercy remains steadfast towards me. Should I fail again only to cause you more shame? Of course not, so then why do I? Do I really desire your will above all else? Somewhere lost in my head I again would say yes I do desire your will above all else, but my actions say otherwise. And my actions scream that my will is what I am after and not yours. Who am I fooling anyways? I am not fooling you Jesus; that is for sure. I hate the power that my flesh has over me. I hate that fact that I listen to my flesh and obey it without question or hesitation. I obey my flesh of my own free will and I choose to obey it instead of you. I HATE IT!!!!

I wish I would be lost and consumed in worshipping you. I wish I would be lost in praising your name. I don’t know what it is, pride maybe? But whatever it is the stench of my flesh hinders me. I am hindered in totally abandoning myself in your presence. I desire to give you control of my heart, my soul, my being. I want to embrace your righteousness and love you from the depths of my being. Why wont I wrestle my flesh to the ground? Consume me Jesus! Consume my every fiber. Take me and make me one with you. Please God, do a work in my hard heart of calloused stone.

Lord of Glory, you are eternal and your light shines ever so brightly. Your light exposes my sin and shame yet it also restores and cleanses me in the depths of my heart. I want to be clean permanently. I know that I am clean postionally in your sight, but I want to experience cleanliness practically. I want to be right where you are at all times. I long for heaven yet I fear I make my bed in hell.

Please forgive me Jesus for grieving your Spirit. Please forgive me for hindering the work of the spirit. Please have mercy on me and help me to walk in repentance all the days of my life. Please hold me Jesus and never let me go. I am so grateful that salvation is a work of grace because if it were not I would be doomed to hell forever. I am so grateful that your word declares that you will never ever forsake me. You will never ever leave me. Oh how I cling to those words. Thank you Lord.

You are so holy Lord God Almighty. You are what I long for when deception has finally fled my eyes and I see reality. My life is a mess and is utterly meaningless without your daily presence. I am a mess. I miss seeing you work in my life and I miss seeing you move among your people. I miss the days of old where I saw and experienced you so clearly and intimately. I miss talking to people who are totally consumed with you and only talk about your goodness; nothing else. I miss being around a people who were consumed by your spirit. I miss being consumed by your spirit. I miss you Jesus. I miss the passion that I had and I want to recapture it and remain in that special place where we are together. So please help me to get there and stay there. Help me to do the former things that helped me to walk closely to you.

Life is full of distractions. Help me to make every sing distraction and attraction to you.

Bill

Journal 7/12/07

Father,

Good morning, how are you doing today? Is there anything that you desire to share with me as I begin my day? Is there something that I should be prepared for? Do I need to learn something new today? I am here and I am ready to hear from you Jesus.

I wish I could live out John 15 in my day to day life. I want to abide in Christ. I want to dwell in that place where you are Lord and I want to stay there. I am a sheep that tends to go in every direction but the right direction. So I am purposing in my heart to give you this moment in time Lord. I can't promise that you will have the next moment. I would love to give you every moment, but I know me. So I am giving you this moment right here, right now. Please have your way with me in this moment.

Love,

Bill

today's thoughts

Life is truely harsh and I hate my flesh. I can't wait until I am delivered from this body of death.

Journal 6/19/07

Father,

You are like a flowing river that starts to grow in the wastelands of my life, for you refresh my soul O Lord. You are like the tide that crashes upon the scorched land in my soul. You are refreshing and filled with life. You are the source and sustainer of life as your clouds of mercy pour out rain upon a weary people. You are so good. And though there is drought brought forth from the blistering heat of the sun, you bring shelter to the weary as your clouds overtake the harshness of the noon time heat. And I can feel the sprinkling of what’s to come. I can taste in a sense the mist coming from eternity. I can feel the sprinkle from the waterfall that crashes down the cliff. I can hear the rumbling power of the pouring water and it is serene and uplifting yet powerful and surreal.

Oh your water is so purifying. You wash me clean as I drink in your thirst quenching waters of life. The winds of refreshment are on their way as I know you are coming again soon for your bride. I feel like a drop of water in the ocean of God. There is such a security as I swim in the fountain of the Lord. I am at home and though the tide may come and go, I can be assured that you love me as I swim in the streams of your love for you are my life.

Oh how this water reflects the Son coming from the sky so clearly. You are incredible Lord Jesus. The icy caverns of my heart have melted away in your presence. I am looking up Lord, for I know the time for your visitation is coming. And each cloud that forms in the heavens only brings me closer to my hope as I ponder your return. You are coming again, Halleluiah! Come Lord Jesus, come quickly for your bride. We are desperate for you, for you have the water that will cause us to never thirst again, and we are a thirsty people Lord.

May I be found dancing in the ripples and waves as they emerge upon the horizon at your coming. May I float in the crystal waters before your throne in humility and meekness as I embrace you at your return. May you take pity on a wretch like me Lord Jesus and return quickly. How I long for that day. Please come for us. We await with eagerness to meet you in the air. Please come soon.

Journal 6-15-07

As I write this I am looking out the window at this incredible view as the sun is setting upon the horizon. Believe it or not, but it is 10:10PM and there is still light glistening in the sky. I am listening to worship music as I contemplate the frailty of life. This view that I have out this window is so glorious. I live in the Northwest and there are so many trees. I can see the mountains buried in greenery, as God’s creation gets ready to close her eyes for the night. I have been so blessed to live in an area of the world where it still only takes a few minutes to get alone in nature and alone with the Lord.

Life is so short. It has been appointed for man once to die and then the judgment.

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. We really do not have a lot of time given to us to dwell on this earth. And not only that but the earth is actually dying. It is not the same earth that our forefathers walked upon. The earth is sick and is dying. The earth is under a curse as we are also while we live in this fallen world. Why do we lose sight so quickly of what is important? The Lord is important. Family is important. Relationships are important. The other things are just so irrelevant in light of eternity. Yet they consume us.

So back to this incredible view, I have this wonderful view from the hospital window as my son Tobias lays next to me asleep in his hospital bed. He is ok, just a little dehydrated from (hopefully just the flu) all the vomiting over the last few days. As I got to the hospital this evening to relieve my wife she informed me that my grandmother was given 6 months to live. She has lived a long time, but at the end of the day, once she takes her last breath that is it. And we will all be in that place. We will all die. Maybe not today, but unless the rapture happens we will die eventually.

Life is just too short to not do the right thing and serve the Lord. And as I say this, I look at myself and see that I too am a man who needs to serve the Lord. Because the truth is that I have only been serving myself. God has been so good to me. I can remember crying out for God to hear my prayer to spare my son Tobias and he heard me. God heard me and answered. And though we are in the hospital now, I am so grateful for the last four years that I have had with my son.

I mean, in a sense this is borrowed time because we were told that Tobias was not going to live. And here yet, here we are four years later. Oh God is good. He really is. Should I be angry with the Lord because my grandmother is not going to make it? Is it God’s fault? No. God has blessed us. We are so blessed and though death really is devastating and horrible; it is a reminder of two things. The first reminder is that we were not created to die. This was not how the original creation was.

And secondly we have hope for what is to come. God has promised us that he will restore things back to what they were. Adam was in paradise and we will one day be in paradise too. He will and has defeated the sting of death. How can we get mad at God when he has in fact given us such a great hope? God has promised that he will resurrect those who are in his family. And when my friends and family breath their last breath, it makes me cling to the promises of God tighter. He is so good. I am so grateful that he has given me hope. I am so grateful that he loves me and cares for me.

He is so pure, loving, gracious, and merciful and yet he still wants to meet with and fellowship with me. Wow! I wish I could focus on Jesus in this way all the time. I mean I know I can, but I wish I would. Sin is so enticing and it keeps me from the One who love me. I have failed on my journey thus far but I pray that from today forward that I would practically walk and live out what I write. I know that when I stand before the Lord that I will have regrets and lots of them.

Oh God, I want to be in tune with you wholly. Please forgive me for choosing other things over the important things in life. The truth is that I feel so safe with you because you have declared that I am precious to you. I want to live I your embrace forever Jesus.

Herb Peters – Stay Tuned

Herb Peters – Stay Tuned

When tragedy strikes and all we can do is wail
When the storm is real hard as we sink and don’t sail
When times are real gloomy as we lose a good friend
It is ok to cry as we struggle to comprehend.

Herb was a man that reported the news
His next of kin Holly will now fulfill his shoes
He sought to reach people and his stance was real bold
He proclaimed the bible as events started to unfold

He was given a task that was his to fulfill
For many of us that task of his only revealed
Just how close we are to the coming of the Lord
We have talked about these things on FP’s discussion boards

Herb loved the bible and the prophesies inside
He talked about the EU as the Roman Empire was revived
Hal Lindsey showed Herb just what the bible was worth
As Herb picked up the book, The Late Great Planet Earth

And from that moment on, Herbs life was not the same
As he proclaimed the scriptures and lifted up Jesus’ name
He studied the news and saw the world was in a fix
The moment he discovered Recommendation 666

So Herb wrote a book to let all people know
As we all read his book our reply was just “Whoa!”
For his book got us thinking as we opened our eyes
We all started looking up for the Lord in the skies

And now as we ponder and as we reflect
We weep and we wail as we miss a man we respect
And though we are mourning from the pain of this wound
This is not the last time we will hear his words, “Stay Tuned!”

Written by Bill Scott, Sr.

Journal 6/11/07

Father,

How many times will I waver and not do the right thing? God, you never change even though my circumstances change. And my circumstances change so much. I have a sense or a feeling of some sort, whether it is prophetic or not I do not know; but I sense an emergency upon the horizon. I sense some oncoming tragedy and I do not know if it is a personal tragedy or a national one but it is eminent and I can’t shake it.

If tragedy does strike at any level, will I waver Lord? Will I stand? Sometimes I long for tragedy in the sense that I am more in tune with you in those times than I am when things are well. Don’t get me wrong, I hate trials but the truth be told, I get so carnal and apathetic in times of blessing. And though I HATE and DESPISE trial and tribulation; I despise my carnality even more.

I long to be a man who walks faithfully before you and that doesn’t happen in times of blessing. But it does happen in times of tragedy at least for me it does. Actually I don’t think I ever walk wholeheartedly with you. Why wont I surrender and simply abide with you Jesus? What will it take?

Lord, if something is hovering over the horizon of my life or America or the world, please help me to prepare so that I can walk in the Spirit and do the right thing before you. Please prepare my wife and I and our family for what is to come. I want to live completely sold out to you and not get caught up and distracted over little things. Help me to keep my eyes on the finish line because I constantly lose sight and forget that I am in a race. Help me to run the race to win.

Bill

Journal 6/7/07

Shall we accept good from the Lord and not adversity? That is a question to ponder when going through any trial in life. Why is it that we can get all excited and passionate with the Lord when things go our way yet at the 1st glimpse of adversity we question and accuse the Lord of wrong doing? This makes no sense to me. If God is faithful then he is faithful period, no matter what happens. And God IS faithful and he can be trusted. He is a good God who loves us and allows things to happen because he is wiser than we are and sees all things.

I desire to be a man who will love the Lord even if he chooses to take my kids lives, and my wealth and my health. Am I that man? I don’t think so, but I want to be a man who simply trusts in the Lord wholeheartedly all the days of my life.

One thing that I have learned over the years is that a lot of people throw out everything that they know to be true about God when they go through a difficult time. And instead of trusting in the only one who can change your circumstances or give you the endurance in the midst of the trial we tend to walk away from the Lord.

Let that not be so. When the trial is crashing upon us and we are in the power of a storm beyond our control that is when we MUST fall upon what we know to be true about the Lord. That is when we must trust Jesus. God is good and he loves me. And maybe it doesn’t feel like he loves me, but Romans 5:8 is the loudest declaration of Gods love for me that there is.

Romans 5:8, For God demonstrated his love towards me that when I was still a sinner, Christ died for me!

Case closed! That is the hard truth and God is good. He cannot think nor do anything that is evil. So my encouragement is when you go through the trial, and we all do; fall back on what you know to be true about the Lord and trust him.

Update

So my son Billy is home and ok now. thank you for all the prayers, they were a total blessing. I really appreciate the prayers. So what happened (Thank you Jim) was that Billy over the last two years has resisted using the bathroom. He hates to poop. and we have over the last two years been taking him to the doctors for this and giving him medicines and enemas and all these things.

Well, Billy's intestines were completely backed up all the way into his stomach. He was starting to get sick from the stool that was backing into his stomach and that is why he continued vomiting.

While at the hospital, my son was completely flushed out. They stuck a tube into his nose that went into his stomach and flushed out his intestines. And that boy of mine had so much stool inside of him that came out that it was unbelievable.

So is the issue done and will Billy start pooping? I don't know. I know that he is out of the current crisis and is still on medication to make him go. Hopefully he wont hold it anymore. So yes my son is home and healthy and being his normal 6 year old self. Thank you EVERYONE for praying. I was totally blessed by the support and the prayers to the Lord. If you can pray that my son will not have issues in the future I would truly be blessed.

Thank you,

Bill

Prayer Request

So yesterday 6/4/07 was my son Billy's birthday. He turned 5. Well he has been throwing up since Sunday morning. We took him to the doctor yesterday and they told us to monitor him and if he keeps doing it then tke him to the hospital.

Well, he started vomiting blood. So Jessica took him to the hospital last night and they are still there. They thought it was the flew at 1st but now they think it is his intestines. He may be in the hospital for a few more days as they run more test on him.

Billy has had problems going to the bathroom. As a matter of fact he holds it for so long at times that in the past all of his large intestines and 3/4 of his small intestines have been backed up.

The doctors are taking xrays of his intestines now too see if that is his problem. That is all I know at this point.

Please pray.......thanks

War

War!

The time has come for the end is at hand
The door is wide open as the Lord makes His stand
Heaven will flood the earth with God’s wrath
We’ve been headed this way, just look at the math

The seasons have pointed to this Day of dread
As the moon gives a sign by turning blood red
The morning brings chaos as the Day starts to unfold
The Lord is returning as the scriptures foretold.

Jesus pours out the wrath of the fierceness of God
He judges the earth with his staff and his rod
The Almighty will deal with the sins of mankind
As the Son treads the winepress and turns the nations to wine

The Day is too great, as the people do weep
They have sown to their flesh; and now judgment they reap.
The fury of God is poured upon all
And no one can stand not the great nor the small

Yet do they repent? The scriptures declare to us NO!
So the seals are opened yes all seven of the woes.
The world never before has seen a time such as this
As it heads further in judgment and towards the great abyss.

The elders in heaven will worship the Lamb
As He pours out His fury all throughout the land
He deals with all sinners as war is now waged
Mankind heads towards disaster as the “End” is now staged.

What a glorious day it will be for the saints
As we worship the Lord while Satan is restrained
The Millennial reign of the King of all Glory
Is not the end to this incredible story

Satan really believes that he can win this war
As he gathers the nations; to Armageddon’s shore
His reign will soon end as he will be cast away
That serpent of old; will finally be slain

Yet that is not the end as there is more to be told
We enter the final judgment as the story unfolds
The wicked are judged for the things they did do
They are judged for theirs sins as they stand there subdued

They start gnashing their teeth as they weep and they wail
Yet they worship the Lord as they are cast into hell
Sin now abolished; the redeemed now can stand
Yet we fall on our face and we worship the Lamb

The war is now over we can enter our rest
Clothed in robes of white as we are truly blessed
We cast down our crowns before God’s throne on the floor
We are grateful and thankful; as our sins are atoned for

And for all of eternity we will worship the Lord
I look forward to knowing him like never before
Sin will not hinder the church as we live and abide
In the presence of God as we are now the Lambs bride.

Written By Bill Scott, Sr.

Journal 5/25/07

In Romans 8, Paul talks about how the creation is groaning and waiting for the redemption of God. And Paul mentions that we can partake in the 1st fruits of the Spirit. This simply blows me away. Who am I that you O Lord would allow to taste of the 1st fruits? I can get a taste of heaven here and now. We can get a taste, YOU can get a taste of heaven here and now. Do you know where that is found? It is found in God’s presence. We are told taste and see that the Lord is good. Will we?

There is no reason to be a Christian if the Holy Spirit is not working in our lives. There is no reason to do the things that we do. If God is not moving then why would we go to church? It would be an empty shell. Why are we Christians? I do not want to sit in a circle and sing a few songs if that is all that there is. Why do we read our bible if it is just words on a page? It’s not! It is life! There is so much more and we can taste it here and now.

Where is our heart? Do we want to be stirred up? Do we really want the presence of God in our life? I know I do. As we seek the Lord and as we simply draw near to God because he is God and he loves us, we will find life and we can and will experience revival. Oh Revival! What a sweetness there is when we are revived and are able to commune with the Savior. How do we get into that place where we can come alive again in passion and intimacy with the Master?

By simply coming to Christ through faith and drawing near to him. It is so simple! Let Jesus be Jesus and love him because he loves you. Fellowship with Jesus; let him lead you and guide you and direct you. Are you in Christ? If so then let us come boldly to the throne room of grace as the book of Hebrews declares because we can. We have access into the throne room of the King of kings. Lets go.

I fear that we are a people that do not enter into the presence of God Almighty. I fear that we live like God doesn’t love us or in a way that declares that we have no power. And that is such a lie. I just need to believe and trust and love God and worship the Lord. All we have to do is come to Jesus. He says, “Come to me. Let me take the burden, let me lead and guide you. Trust me!”

We ought to be worshippers! Let us be a people who worship God for who he is. Let us be a people who seek God and enjoy the Lord. Let us listen to his voice and listen to his Spirit. Let us enter into his presence right now and return to the Lord wholeheartedly.

Listen to the urgency of these scriptures……they are all chapter 9:11.

Psalm 9:11 Sing praises to the LORD, who dwells in Zion! Declare His deeds among the people.

Luke 9:11 But when the multitudes knew it, they followed Him; and He received them and spoke to them about the kingdom of God, and healed those who had need of healing.

Hebrews 9:11 But Christ came as High Priest of the good things to come, with the greater and more perfect tabernacle not made with hands, that is, not of this creation.

Journal 5/23/07

Lord,

I am not a person who likes to “Spiritualize” every little thing and make it out to be some supernatural thing. But for the last 4 months or so almost every day I see the number 911. No matter what I am doing I will look at the clock both in the morning and at night daily and it will be 9:11 or I will be driving and see a license plate that says 911 or I will be adding up numbers at work and the total will be 911; and so I see these reminders on a daily basis. I am curious Lord, are you trying to tell me something? I am determined to base EVERYTHING upon your word alone. As your word is eternal and complete and I do not want to stray from the sure foundation of your eternal word. But I also believe that you do speak to your kids and you may be speaking to me. Or you may not be speaking to me. And the truth is that I simply do not know what if you are or not.

You say in your word that if I ask you for wisdom then you would supply it abundantly. So here I am Lord asking for your wisdom with this area of my life. Is there something that you are trying to warn me about Lord? Is there something that I need to hear from you about or is this something that I am to ignore because it is a figment of my imagination? Please make your answer to this important question of mine clear to me. Because I won’t move in either direction until you speak clearly in a way that I understand. I need your insight and counsel and wisdom.

In Jesus name…..Amen

Where's the Evidence?

Where's the Evidence?

Imagine that you are looking at a luxury liner moving through calm waters. To your amazement about a dozen people jump off the ship, and cling to a lifeboat. You watch as the rest of the passengers stand on the ship and laugh at them. You can understand their reaction. What those few people did was foolish. It made no sense.

Suddenly, the ship hits an unseen iceberg and sinks, taking with it all who stayed on board. Now you see that those who seemed like fools were wise, but those who stayed on the ship and seemed to be wise, were fools.

We have in the Bible a command to jump off the luxury liner of this world. Before you laugh at stupid Christians, ask yourself if there is any proof that its claims are true. Here is compelling evidence that the Bible is no ordinary book:

Jeremiah 33:22 (written 2500 years ago): "As the host of heaven cannot be numbered, neither the sand of the sea measured."

The Bible claimed that there are billions of stars ("host of heaven" is the biblical term for the stars). When it made this statement, no one knew how vast the numbers of stars were as only about 1,100 were observable. Now we know that there are billions of stars, and that they cannot be numbered.

Job 26:7 (written 3500 years ago): "He stretches out the north over the empty place, and hangs the earth upon nothing."

The Bible claimed that the earth freely floated in space. Science then thought that the earth sat on a large animal. We now know that the earth has a free float in space.

Hebrews 11:3 (written 2000 years ago): "Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear."

The Bible claims that all creation is made of invisible material. Science then was ignorant of the subject. We now know that the entire creation is made of invisible elements called "atoms."

Leviticus 17:11 (written 3000 years ago): "For the life of the flesh is in the blood."
The Scriptures declare that blood is the source of life. Up until 120 years ago, sick people were "bled", and many died because of the practice. We now know that blood is the source of life. If you lose your blood, you will lose your life.

Leviticus 15:13 (written 3000 years ago): "And when he that has an issue is cleansed of his issue; then he shall number to himself seven days for his cleansing, and wash his clothes, and bathe his flesh in running water, and shall be clean."

The Bible said that when dealing with disease, hands should be washed under running water. Up until 100 years ago doctors washed their hands in a basin of still water, resulting in the death of multitudes. We now know that doctors must wash their hands under running water.

The Encyclopedia Britannica documents that in 1845, a young doctor in Vienna named Dr. Ignaz Semmelweis was horrified at the terrible death rate of women who were dying after giving birth in hospitals. As many as 30% of those giving birth died. The Doctor noted that doctors would examine the bodies of those who had died, then, without washing their hands, go straight to the next wards and examine expectant mothers. This was their normal practice, because the presence of microscopic diseases was unknown. Doctor Semmelweis insisted that doctors wash their hands before examinations, and the death rate immediately dropped down to 2%.

Job 38:35 (written 3,500 years ago. God Himself speaking): "Can you send lightning’s, that they may go and say unto you, Here we are?"

The Bible here is saying a scientifically ludicrous statement -- that light can be sent, and then manifest itself in speech. But did you know that radio waves move at the speed of light? This is why you can have instantaneous wireless communication with someone on the other side of the earth. Science didn't discover this until 1864 when "the British scientist James Clerk Maxwell suggested that electricity and light waves were two forms of the same thing" (Modern Century Illustrated Encyclopedia, Vol. 12).

Isaiah 40:22 (written 2800 years ago): "It is he that sits upon the circle of the earth."
The Bible informs us here that the earth is round. At a time when science believed that the earth was flat, it was the Scriptures that inspired Christopher Columbus to sail around the world. He wrote: "It was the Lord who put it into my mind. I could feel His hand upon me . . . there is no question the inspiration was from the Holy Spirit because He comforted me with rays of marvelous illumination from the Holy Scriptures . . ." (From his diary, in reference to his discovery of "the New World").

Job 38:19 (written 3500 years ago). "Where is the way where light dwells?"
Modern man has only just discovered that light (electromagnetic radiation) has a "way," involving motion traveling at 186,000 miles per second.

Genesis 1:1,3 (written 3,450 years ago): "In the beginning God created the Heaven and the earth . . . And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters."
Science expresses the universe in five terms: time, space, matter, power and motion. "In the beginning (time) God created (power) the Heaven (space) and the earth (matter) . . . And the Spirit of God moved (motion) upon the face of the waters."

Why did the dinosaur disappear? This is something that has modern science mystified, but the Bible may have the answer (written 3500 years ago. God Himself is speaking):

"Behold now behemoth, which I made with thee; he eats grass as an ox. Lo now, his strength is in his loins, and his force is in the navel of his belly. He moves his tail like a cedar: the sinews of his stones are wrapped together. His bones are as strong pieces of brass; his bones are like bars of iron. He is the chief of the ways of God: he that made him can make his sword to approach unto him. Surely the mountains bring him forth food, where all the beasts of the field play. He lies under the shady trees, in the covert of the reed, and fens. The shady trees cover him with their shadow; the willows of the brook compass him about. Behold, he drinks up a river, and hastens not: he trusts that he can draw up Jordan into his mouth. He takes it with his eyes: his nose pierces through snares. (Job 40:15-24).

This was the Largest of all creatures He made.It was plant-eating (herbivorous).It had its strength in its hips.Its tail was like a large tree (a cedar).It had very strong bones.Its habitat was among the trees.Drank massive amounts of water.His nose pierced through snares.
Then Scripture says, " . . . He that made him can make his sword approach to him." In other words, God caused this, the largest of all the creatures He had made, to become extinct.

Psalm 8:8: "And the fish of the sea, and whatsoever passes through the paths of the seas."
What does the Bible mean by "paths" of the seas? The sea is just a huge mass of water, how then could it have "paths?" Man discovered the existence of ocean currents in the 1850's, but the Bible declared the science of oceanography 2,800 years ago. Matthew Maury (1806- 1873) is considered to be the father of oceanography. He was bedridden during a serious illness and asked his son to read a portion of the Bible to him. While listening, he noticed the expression "paths of the sea." Upon his recovery, Maury took God at His word and went looking for these paths. His book on oceanography is still considered a basic text on the subject and is still used in universities.

Jonah 2:6 (written 2,800 years ago): "I went down to the bottoms of the mountains; the earth with her bars was about me for ever: yet have you brought up my life from corruption, O LORD my God."

When Jonah was in the depths of the ocean, he spoke of going down to the "bottoms of the mountains." Only in recent years has man discovered that there are mountains on the ocean floor. The greatest ocean depth has been sounded in the Challenger Deep of the Mariana's Trench, a distance of 35,798 feet below sea level. Mount Everest is 29,035 feet high.

Amos 9:6 (written 2,800 years ago): "He . . . calls for the waters of the sea, and pours them out upon the face of the earth; the Lord is His name."

The Mississippi River dumps over six million gallons of water per second into the Gulf of Mexico. Where does all that water go? That's just one of thousands of rivers. The answer lies in the hydrologic cycle, something that was not fully accepted until the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries, 2500 years after the Bible said that God takes the waters of the sea, and pours them upon the face of the earth.

Job 38:12, 14, (written 3500 years ago) God Himself says: "Have you commanded the morning since your days; and caused the dayspring to know his place; that it might take hold of the ends of the earth, that the wicked might be shaken out of it? It [the earth] is turned as clay to the seal; and they stand as a garment."

Modern science has come to understand that the earth's rotation on its axis is responsible for the sun's rising and setting. The picture here is of a vessel of clay being turned or rotated upon the potter's wheel -- an accurate analogy of the earth's rotation.

Psalm 19:4-6: "In them has He set a tabernacle for the sun, which is as a bridegroom coming out of his chamber, and rejoices as a strong man to run a race. His [the sun's] going forth is from the end of the heaven, and his circuit unto the ends of it: and there is nothing hid from the heat thereof."

Bible critics have scoffed at these verses, saying that they teach that the sun revolves around the earth. Science told them that the sun was stationary. Then they discovered that the sun is in fact moving through space at approximately 600,000 miles per hour. It is traveling through the heavens and has a "circuit" just as the Bible says. It is estimated that its circuit is so large, it would take 200 million years to complete one orbit.

Job 38:22 (written 3,500 years ago). God says: "Have you entered into the treasures of the snow?"

It wasn't until the advent of the microscope that man discovered that each and every single snowflake is uniquely a symmetrical "treasure."

Genesis 2:1 (after creation): "Thus the heavens and the earth were finished, and all the host of them."

The Hebrew word used here is the past definite tense for the verb "finished," indicating an action completed in the past, never again to occur. The creation was "finished" -- once and for all. That is what the First Law of Thermodynamics says. It states that neither matter nor energy can be either created or destroyed. There is no "creation" ongoing today. It is "finished" exactly as the Bible states.

Hebrews 1:10,11 (written 2000 years ago): ". . . And, You, Lord, in the beginning have laid the foundation of the earth; and the heavens are the works of your hands: They shall perish; but you remain; and they all shall wax old as does a garment." The Bible tells us that the earth is wearing out. This is what the Second Law of Thermodynamics states. This wasn't discovered by science until comparatively recently.

Genesis 17:12: "And he that is eight days old shall be circumcised among you, every man child in your generations, he that is born in the house, or bought with money of any stranger, which is not of thy seed."

Why was circumcision to be carried out on the eighth day? Medical science has discovered that the eighth day is the only day in the entire life of the newborn that the blood clotting element prothrombin is above 100%.

Genesis 3:15: "And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed; it shall bruise your head, and you shall bruise his heel."

This verse reveals that a female possesses the "seed of life." This was not the common knowledge until a few centuries ago. It was widely believed that the male only possessed the "seed of life" and that the woman was nothing more than a glorified incubator.

Isaiah 40:12 (written 2,800 years ago): "Who has measured the waters in the hollow of His hand . . ."

We are told that God has measured the waters and set a proper amount of water on the earth. Modern science has proved that the quantity of water on earth is just enough for our needs. If the sea became three meters deeper, the water would absorb all the carbon dioxide and nitrogen, and no creature could live any longer.

Job 26:7 (written 3500 years ago): "He stretches out the north over the empty place . . ."
Less than 200 years ago, through the advent of massive telescopes, science learned about the great empty space in the north.

Isaiah 40:22 (written 2,800 years ago): "It is He that . . . stretches out the heavens as a curtain, and spreads them out as a tent to dwell in."

Scientists are beginning to understand that the universe is expanding, or stretching out. At least seven times in Scripture we are clearly told that God stretches out the heavens like a curtain.

Journal 5/17/07

Father,

You are the God of all Creation. You created the worlds without end and You deserve to be praised, and glorified. You are holy and righteous, all wise, you are without measure and know no boundaries as you O Lord are infinite. You are sovereign and all-powerful and can do what you please any way that you choose to. You are holy and Majestic. You have total and absolute moral purity and cannot sin nor think evil.

Father you are Omniscience in that you possess perfect knowledge and have no need to learn anything. You know everything and I praise you that I do not need to hide anything from you. You are faithful and do not lie. Any and everything that you say will come to pass and I can rest in full assurance of faith as you are truth. And you are love. Your love is not just an emotion but a demonstration. You love in word and in deed. You are Omnipotent; you possess all power as your power is infinite. Your power never runs out and never need to be replenished.

You self exist. You are eternal and are complete in and of yourself. And you are self-sufficient. You have life in and of yourself. You have no needs. You don’t need help, or counsel, or food or knowledge; you have all of it. And you are full of justice. You do not conform to outside pressure and you will not be bribed.

You never change Lord. You are immutable and are the same today, yesterday and forevermore. And your mercy overwhelms me as I see that you are actively compassionate towards those whom you love and even those who hate you. And oh how you are good. You are kind, and cordial and benevolent and full of good will towards all people.You are gracious as you give GREAT gifts to those whom you love. And we do not deserve your grace. Oh God I worship you for you are Omnipresent and are everywhere all the time. You are always with me no matter where I go.

For you are Elohim, you are God of the Beginning, God of Justice, God of forgiveness, God of heights and depth, and width and length. You are God my strength, the God of all gods. You are a Holy God, a Faithful God, a Great God. You are the God of Israel, the God of heaven and Earth. You are the God of my Salvation as you are the Most High God.

You are my banner and my provider, you are my peace and my maker. And for this I worship you for there is NONE like YOU at all. I worship you my King.

I am so grateful to be yours. Thank you for being so much bigger than I could imagine or perceive. You ROCK!!!!
Bill

Thoughts

Purity and prayer daily means that God will work in my life.

Eliminate Impurity and Cultivate Prayer

This was the message on Sunday at my church. It was a good message.

Journal 5/14/07

Lord,

I wanted to sit down and write you a letter. Too often I come to you with my request or my burdens and I know that I need to do those things. But this time I want to just talk with you about whatever you desire to talk about. I am here Jesus, I sit here and I worship you while I wait for you to speak your heart to me.

How was your day Jesus? Did you do anything miraculous today? I am sure you did. What steps do I need to take to fall more in line with you? What am I not doing that I ought to be doing? What am I doing wrong; what is the root cause that could be changed to help me walk closer in line with your desires and will for me?

What is your absolute favorite thing to do? What makes you laugh? What puts a smile on your face or puts you in a silly mood? Does anything? Are you serious only? Or are you one who laughs when something is funny? What is your favorite kind of food? I know you like fish and bread because you ate it often in your Word.

Am I really one of yours? Sometimes I don’t think I am. And too often I open my mouth and insert my foot. I am such a miserable person to be around most of the time. How do I get my eyes off of what I am not and keep them on what and who you are?

I remember when you drew me that picture in the sky Lord. That was so amazing to me. The colors were so radiant and crisp. You totally blew me away and it melted my heart as I was set ablaze at your devotion to me. Can you do something like that again? Will you reach out and touch me in a way that puts your fingerprints on my soul? I want to behold you as I am held by you.

I like who I am when I am with you. I like who you cause me to be. Because the reality is that you complete me Lord. You are everything I need and truly what I desire. You are radical and I am grateful that you are real and that you love me. Please speak to me your child……I sit here and again I wait in hopes of hearing words that no one is able to speak but you alone because you are God. Here I am Lord……at this moment in time as I sit here waiting for you to either speak or to simply return for your waiting bride. Come Lord Jesus Come!

Bill

Journal 5/11/07

Dad,

There was a time when I was younger when I said that I would follow You wherever You go. I had so many traits of the Apostle Peter where I thought I would never deny You nor walk away from You. But the years have taken a toll on my passion and have quenched the flame that burned within me for so many years. I feel as if I have burned down all the bridges that You have built to me Lord. I feel as if I have forsaken You too many times. Yet I know that Your grace covers my faithlessness. I know that it does not excuse it but Your blood covers me. Oh how I want You to burn in me a flame of passion for You and Your kingdom once again. I want to flee from my religion of apathy and run in love towards You Lord. I want to be a person who simply seeks to know You. Help me draw near to You Lord.

You know Lord that many times in my barrenness when I have been in the desert places in my journey with You that there have been times I have felt that You were pure fiction. And in those times You have heard my failed petitions to serve You endlessly. You have heard my empty clatter and shallow words. Most of my petitions from me to You have failed. Not because of You but because of where my heart has been. Every boast in my heart that I have had of following after You have ended in my simple denial of You and Your power. Anything I have generated in and of myself has only left me fruitless and faithless towards You. Yet though I am faithless You remain faithful and devoted to me.

I want to SCREAM AAAARRRGGGHHHHH!!!!! But it doesn’t make me feel any better. As I sit here and hate the sins that I allow to overtake me far too often. Why o’ soul do you pursue the things that can never satisfy? Why O’ why wont you surrender fully to Jesus? What are you afraid of? What is it that you are confused about? I hate you at times because you take me from the One who loves me. I hate and am so frustrated with myself because I refuse to remain in that place where I simply sit with Jesus.

How I long to be a different person than I really am. How I long to sing from the heart in passionate devotion to You Jesus as You take me from this valley into the highest of heights. I used to say that I would do anything for You and time has revealed that to not be so true. Why wont I surrender all of me fully to You Lord?

Jesus, please give me another love song for You. Give me songs of praise for You. Give me songs of surrender from my heart to You. Help me to convey not just my heart but Your heart through songs and through writing. I am so desperate. I am so needy. Yet those words “I am” can do two things. I can think of me and what “I am.” Or I can think upon the Great I AM! What a difference that makes. When my focus is removed from me and placed on You.

And what happens when I take my eyes off me and put them on You? I start thinking about things bigger than me as I get a glimpse at Your heart. I start to think about the unsaved peoples of this world.

God you alone can save the nations and can reach the people groups of the world. Please open up the doors to reach these people. You know all things and I desire to get my heart in line with Yours. I want to be like the prophet Isaiah where I cry out the words, “Woe is me! I am a man of unclean lips”, as I am undone in your presence. I want to receive the coal from your alter that deals with the specific sins that I embrace so that you can cleanse me. And then I want to hear You speak as Isaiah heard You talking among your Godhead where You said, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for Us?”

I want to be one who hears that. I want to hear Your call to the nations and I want to respond. I desire to be a man who no longer determines his own steps but answers Your call. I want to be a man who says, “Send me Lord!”

I often say that I love You Lord and it seems that You has been leading me as I ask You to bless all my plans. But I am not so sure that I have been following You. I think I have been doing what I want and following my own steps as I build my house on the sand instead of the Rock.

If that is the case, please redirect me. I repent, at least I think I do…..history would tell me no that I am not repenting but I don’t care about history or what I have done or not done in the past. I really want to at this moment in time to give You all of me. So here I am Lord. I stand here before the Great I Am and I seek Your counsel and desire to hear Your voice. You are moving in the midst of Your church and I desire at this point in time to get in line and to align my heart with Yours. Please have Your way with me.

This is my heart and my petition to You my King, my Lord, my Father and my Dad. And I come to You on the merits of Jesus….so I know You hear this petition and I know You will answer it. So here I am waiting……until I hear You say the words…..SO BE IT!

Amen!

This is true worship!!!

1 After these things I looked, and behold, a door standing open in heaven. And the first voice which I heard was like a trumpet speaking with me, saying, “Come up here, and I will show you things which must take place after this.”2 Immediately I was in the Spirit; and behold, a throne set in heaven, and One sat on the throne. 3 And He who sat there was like a jasper and a sardius stone in appearance; and there was a rainbow around the throne, in appearance like an emerald.

4 Around the throne were twenty-four thrones, and on the thrones I saw twenty-four elders sitting, clothed in white robes; and they had crowns of gold on their heads. 5 And from the throne proceeded lightnings, thunderings, and voices. Seven lamps of fire were burning before the throne, which are the seven Spirits of God. 6 Before the throne there was a sea of glass, like crystal. And in the midst of the throne, and around the throne, were four living creatures full of eyes in front and in back. 7 The first living creature was like a lion, the second living creature like a calf, the third living creature had a face like a man, and the fourth living creature was like a flying eagle. 8 The four living creatures, each having six wings, were full of eyes around and within. And they do not rest day or night, saying:

“ Holy, holy, holy,
Lord God Almighty,
Who was and is and is to come!”

9 Whenever the living creatures give glory and honor and thanks to Him who sits on the throne, who lives forever and ever, 10 the twenty-four elders fall down before Him who sits on the throne and worship Him who lives forever and ever, and cast their crowns before the throne, saying:

11 “ You are worthy, O Lord,
To receive glory and honor and power;
For You created all things,
And by Your will they exist and were created.”

We will be there one day and be able to partake in this.....oh how I cant wait!!!!

Journal 5/9/07

Father,

My heart tends to be so cold these days. I wish I were no longer in this body and in my glorified body where sin no longer dwells inside of me. Please come back for your bride. I want to be with you.....I am tired of constantly walking away from you and your presence. This body of death that I live in is so overwhelming and it is hard for me to do the right things when the darkness of my own sin and flesh consume me as they do. I am such a joke yet you love me. And your love towards me always brings me back to you. Thank you. Please help me to stay in that place where you are.

In Jesus name I pray...Amen.

Journal 5/2/07

I sit here with really nothing to say Lord. I don't really have many prayer request and that is probably to my shame. But as I write I already have request.....lol.

Please help Billy Jr to start using the bathroom in the toilet. He gets the worse rashes and we need your help Jesus. I don't know how to potty train him. And giving him enimas gets old quickly. Please heal his scared mind and whatever it is that he thinks about which causes him to not go. Please heal him.

I pray for Jessica that you would give her grace with homescooling and balancing work and raising the kids and all that she does. Please help her to sit with you and to embrace you in the midst of chaos.

I pray for Tobias and I thank you that he is totally potty trained. I do ask that if you are willing that he would not have autism. But if he does please prepare Jessica and I for that.

I pray for Mercy and I ask that you would raise her to be passionately sold out to you Jesus. Please protect her from the trash in this world and use her for your glory.

I pray for the high school kids and I ask that you would take a hold of their hearts and transform them into people sold out to their God......

In Jesus name I pray.....Amen!